1. Yourself: Jeege
2. Your boyfriend/girlfriend/spouse: Uvon
3. Your hair: Parted
4. Your Mother: Loving
5. Your Father: Nutty!
6. Your Favorite Item: Computer
7. Your dream last night: Forgotten
8. Your Favorite drink: Wine
9. Your Dream Car: Mustang
10. The room you are in: Tiny
11. Your Ex: Angry
12. Your fear: Alone
13. What you want to be in 10 years? Happy
14. Who you hung out with last night? Uvon
15. What You’re Not? Relaxed
16. Muffins: Yum
17. One of Your Wish List Items: IPod
18. Time: Fleeting
19. The Last Thing You Did: Shower
20. What You Are Wearing: Underpants
21. Your Favorite Weather: Sunny
22. Your Favorite Book: Nonfiction
23. The Last Thing You Ate: Enchiladas
24. Your Life: Adventure
25. Your Mood: Chipper
26. Your best friend: Crazy
27. What are you thinking about right now? Work
28. Your car: Teal
29. What are you doing at the moment? Typing
30. Your summer: Exciting
31. Your relationship status: Boyfriended
32. What is on your TV? Antenna
33. What is the weather like? Warm
34. When is the last time you laughed? Today
That's it for now!
Okay, so I haven't updated in a super long time (almost a month), but I've had good reason. Plenty of good reasons, actually. I'm going to share some of them with you now.
First of all, Uvon and I found an apartment. The second place we looked at turned out to be perfect, so after a lot of finagling and finding the money, we put down our first month's rent and signed a lease. It starts April first, and our old ones end May first, so we're going to take the month to move. We'd both like to be in the new place by April 20th, so we have time to clean our old places to make sure we get our security deposits back. The new place is fabulous...it's about 5 blocks north of where we are now, but there are more "amenities" in the neighborhood. It's a small building (six units?) and our unit is the most architecturally interesting...it's on two levels, but hard to explain. I'll post pics once we get in there.
Moving has had us both a little stressed recently. We've noticed that we have shorter fuses than usual, and that we are having more miscommunications than usual, so we're trying to talk about our relationship a lot, and what we're feeling, and we're also trying to take each other with a grain of salt. It seems to be going okay, but I'm waiting until we're in the apartment and settled to breathe a sigh of relief. Moving is one of the most stressful events, psychologically (right up there with marriage, divorce, death and changing jobs), so it's no wonder that we're a little on edge.
Work has been...well, it's been wearing me down lately. Our new manager started the other day, and she seems great, and I'm totally grateful for the help. My regional manager commented that I seem to be unhappy at work for the past couple months (duh!), and wanted to know how she could help. That was nice...she's a good lady. She also told me to take a little vacation in April, which I think I'll take her up on. I haven't really EVER had more than two days off in a row since I've been at this job (over a year), and I think I need to get some persepective. I'm trying to align my vacation with moving, so I can feel like I'm accomplishing something, and not just sitting around the house playing on the internet.
Now on to the drama...
On March 10, an apartment fire on the north side of Chicago took the lives of two of my friends, and two others who were there. One of my friends (Jenn) left behind a four-year-old son, and all of the victims were in their early twenties. It's a very, very sad thing. I went to Jenn's wake, but I wasn't able to make it to her funeral or any of the others' funerals because of work. They were dear friends of Alice, who is one of my best friends (and with whom I work), so I had to make sure she was off work to attend everything. The whole thing is very sad and unnecessary...a homeless woman, who is severely mentally ill, started the fire in their stairwell to keep warm, and it just progressed from there. The woman is in custody, but she is so out of it, she barely understands what she did. I can't blame her...as far as I'm concerned, it was a random act that turned out tragic.
Uvon's grandmother had several small strokes yesterday, and she's in the hospital for observation and tests. Any prayers would be appreciated. She's a relatively young person, and she's very vibrant and active, so hopefully all of this will pass and she'll be fine. So far, there doesn't seem to be any lasting damage...keep your fingers crossed.
That's it for now (is that enough?). Talk to you soon...I promise to be better about posting!
So, we looked at another place yesterday and we really loved it...even more than the other place. The location is good, the rent is in our range, and it's larger than we thought we could afford. Please send some prayers our way as we submit our application and attempt to get this apartment.
I was off of work yesterday, and I needed it. I work at 1 today, and we received a large shipment this morning, so I'll probably spend most of my day checking that in. That's fine with me, but it means I won't have time for anything else, and our secretary gets back from vacation tomorrow. I haven't really had much time to work on her tasks this week, and I know she's going to be pissed off, but that's just too bad.
I just talked to Alice at work, and Rebecca (the manager who's been coming to "help" me out a couple days a week) apparently did NOTHING yesterday. This means that I still have a ton of things to do. Arrgghhh...I'm so sick of my job. I've been thinking about applying for something at the insurance company where my mom works. I used to work there during the summer, and I'm just dying for a 9-to-5 job where I can leave my work at work. I'm tired of being on call all the time. Okay, enough bitching.
That's about it. Our friends Josh and Mark are having a housewarming Saturday night, and that should be fun. Of course, I have to work Sunday, so I'll try to curtail my drinking at said party. Sunday is the Oscars, and I think we're going to Michelle's for that.
Other than that, just keeping my fingers crossed about the apartment. Byee!
Okay, so I'm pretty stressed out right now, and I'm going to abuse this space as my personal venting outlet. If you choose not to read further, so be it, but I'm going to keep talking anyways.
So I know that I complain about work all the time, but it's getting to the point where I don't even want to go. I actually called the store to say I would be late today, and then TOOK A NAP. That's how little I want to be there. And, just as I suspected, as soon as I walked in, I was greeted with complaints, customer issues, conflicts between associates, and general negativity. I can't stand working someplace where I'm constantly surrounded by negativity. It eats away at me. I also can't deal with doing between two and three jobs at once. By this, I mean how we still don't have a manager (there is someone who is taking the position, but Lord knows when they'll get around to transferring her), and our clerical worker is out this week, so I have to do her job too. And, let me tell you, I'm not good at her job. I've never been adequately trained on how to accomplish her tasks, plus, with the new cash register system, it's gotten even more difficult. I'm really beginning to think I need to get out of retail. I just want to have a weekend off, dammit!
I've been feeling more and more uncomfortable at church lately, and that's a shame. I love my church, and I have some very good friends there, but I feel like everyone is taking Will's side in things. He was just recently elected to the Vestry, which I felt was a slap in the face, and everyone seems to be rallying around him as the "wronged" individual. I know it sounds petty, but I wish they knew how much of a hand he had in our breaking up. It was definitely not all me, that's for sure. I just hate not feeling welcome in a faith community that I had considered my home.
Okay, so I'm really excited that Uvon and I are moving in together. It's high time we did it, and I love new apartments, and I know it will ultimately be a great thing. But the process is draining on me. First of all, my finances are pretty much in shambles right now. I'm getting a pretty substantial tax return, which will be used toward the security deposit, etc., but otherwise I'm strapped for cash. I actually had to use a credit card to pay for my kitten's neutering (and I had stopped using credit altogether up until this). I had to call Cingular to stop them from shutting off my phone, and I've had to borrow money from Uvon (something I swore I would never do). My lack of money just compounds my dissatisfaction with the work situation, as I am far from adequately compensated for the work I do.
In conclusion, I'm a super-fun person to be around right now (that was sarcasm, in case you didn't catch it). I could use whatever prayers and support you can throw my way right now. As for me, I'm going to bed...all this bitching has worn me out.
It's snowing here in Chicago, but it's really pretty snow...not that terrible freezing-cold ice-snow we had last week. It's fluffy and white and makes the city a prettier place to be, at least until it turns into slush. Jeege no like slush.
This whole Anna Nicole Smith thing intrigues me. I was very sad the first night I heard about it...it seems like she never had a chance. She was thrown into the spotlight (albeit willingly), and has been in the news since she first posed in Playboy. It seems like, for all her fame, she couldn't escape tragedy. I suppose we shall see how this plays out in the days and weeks to come.
Someone called in sick to work, again. I'm so tired of dealing with these attendance issues. This is your job, people, so please be grown-up enough to show up! We're getting a manager finally, btw. It's a woman, which could be good or bad, but will probably be good. I can't wait for my workload to lighten once I have another manager around...I can finally get back to just doing my job! Plus, we've been missing a full-timer since our old manager left, so scheduling will become much easier. Okay, enough about work.
The kittens are fun. Henry (my kitten) is the NEEDIEST cat I've ever encountered. I do have to admit that I had a hand in that...I give him constant attention, and pet him and wrestle with him and pick him up. But the other night, he actually fell asleep with me holding him like a teddy bear! Most cats would rather die than have someone wrap their arm around them, but not Henry! There's no such thing as bad attention for this cat! Erasmus (Uvon's kitten) is more cat-like in his approach to humans. He's still a very friendly cat, but he can be a little standoffish. He sleeps at the foot of the bed, Henry sleeps on my neck.
That's all for now. Tonight is Alone Time Night, so I'll try to post again. Until then...
Keep it real!
Okay, so, for those of you not in Chicago...it's DAMN COLD! I mean negative temperature cold. Frozen snot cold. Can't feel your fingers (or toes or nose or the front of your legs) cold. Colder than a witch's tit (and probably several other parts of a witch).
Have I ever mentioned what I think of winter clothes? I HATE THEM! Winter clothes take normal, attractive, human-looking people, and turn them into gross, asexual, wool-encrusted lumps of flesh. I can't stand the way I look all bundled up. It's not cute, nor is it the idealized "I'm-going-skiing-don't-I-look-cute" thing that the media wants us to believe. Oh, no...face it people, we all look incredibly unattractive when outside in the cold. In addition to the garb, we make all kinds of faces to try to keep from freezing to death...from the "Into the Wind" squint to the "I'm trying to keep blood in my skin" frantic face spasm.
In conclusion, winter is an incredibly unattractive time for all of us. Maybe "Oprah" should do a show about what's it's like to be "winterized". You know, like when they dress someone up like they're fat, and then watch everyone treat them like crap. We could take somebody totally hot, like a supermodel or something, and dress them up in a parka and scarf and earmuffs and mittens, and then see how people on the street treat them. I bet they would get treated just like everyone else...and then Oprah's slightly heavyset audience could laugh at the "poor" pretty person not getting everything they want! I swear, the American public is hungry for this sort of thing.
Okay, time to go to bed before I get too silly. Stay warm!
Okay, so as y'all know, Uvon and I are moving in together after our leases are up (April). Well, we've really started getting into "Our Place" mode, and it's totally fun. I've been looking at places on the internet, and it looks like we can get a cool apartment in our neighborhood for what we can afford. Yay! I'm also realizing that I should have looked harder when I moved into this place. I mean, I love my building, but it's pretty expensive for the amount of space I have. Of course, I was in a bit of a hurry when I moved in here, so I guess I couldn't be too picky. I just think of all the money I could have saved if I had found a cheaper place.
Anyhoo, we're having fun picking out furniture we can't afford from CB2 and deciding what colors we like and all of that. It's always great to have something cool to look forward to.
Of course, packing and unpacking and the part in between all suck, but then fun starts.
...but I ended up going to Alice's place for a "Girls' Night" and I stayed over, so I didn't have the time I usually do on Alone Time Night to post. And it's been pretty busy since then.
Work is grating on my nerves again. I know everyone is sick of hearing about this, and if that applies in your case, skip to the next paragraph. This week, I'm just tired of not having a life. My schedule has changed this week FOUR TIMES...and I mean radically changed. I was supposed to be off today, but now I'm working in the evening. I was supposed to work tomorrow, but now I'm off. And I was supposed to open on Saturday, which I had requested, because the Young Adults group at Uvon's church is have a Mid-Winter Revival, and I was planning on being very involved in leading the program. However, now I have to close on Saturday and miss the revival, which sucks...I was excited about my portion of the program. I'm going to pass the torch to Uvon, but I really wanted to participate in this. I feel like I could use a personal Revival this month. I haven't been to church since the first Sunday of the month (because of work) and I won't be able to go this Sunday, and I'm jonesing for some communal worship activity. My personal devotions are wonderful, but part of being a Christian is joining with other Christians in prayer, and I haven't had much of that recently. Hopefully things will settle down on this front very soon.
I just realized this morning that it's been over a year since Uvon and I got back together. That made me happy...I love all of our milestones, and this is a big one. I mean, we still had some issues to work out at this point last year, but for the most part, we've been together for a year straight. And I still love him...moreso, actually. We can't wait to move in together. It's fun and scary all at once to go to a new level in a relationship, but I know that we're totally ready for this one. In fact, living in seperate apartments has become more of an annoyance than anything else. We stay at his place most of the time anyways, and I feel like I'm paying rent for a very large closet instead of an apartment. Next month, we'll start more of an intense search for our home together.
Okay, time to go shower and shave before work. I should check and see with whom I'm working today...that can make or break my day. Or maybe I'll just leave it for a surprise...No, I'm going to go look. =) Laters, all!
I promise I'll write more tonight, but here's an update for y'all...
Inventory Sucks! My sleep schedule is all screwed up, I'm sick of looking at nine-digit numbers, and I can't wait to get back to "normal" at work, whatever that is.
On the other hand, our inventory went really well...better than it ever has. Quite a feather in my managerial cap!
GO BEARS! I wish I still had my 45 of the "Super Bowl Shuffle"! That game was awesome yesterday, even if my Saints lost.
We went and saw "The Queen" on Friday. I liked it, but I'll comment further on that later on.
I finished reading "Mere Christianity". Again, commentary to follow.
Time to hop in the shower before work. I'll post tonight, as it's Alone Time Night, and I always post then.